Jeremiah 1:4-10
Fear, Deep Gladness, and God’s Call
James Sledge August
21, 2016
There’s
a famous quote from writer and Presbyterian pastor, Frederick Buechner about
calling, one I’ve used myself on a number of occasions. “The place God calls
you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger
meet.” I love this idea, the notion that discovering your true purpose in life both
deepens your own joy while making the world a better place. Still, the quote
has always left me a little uneasy.
No
doubt there is truth to it. Many people have found vocations or callings that
bring them much happiness while doing good, helping others, benefitting society.
But the quote still makes me uneasy for a couple of reasons. First, in our individualistic
culture, the focus on my deep gladness tends to overshadow the world’s deep
hunger. And second, the quote isn’t always true.
I
first encountered Buechner as I explored my call to become a pastor. The quote
is often trotted out at discernment weekends held by seminaries and by pastors
and others advising would be pastors. However, there is another pearl of wisdom
often shared by the same people. This one comes from Charles Spurgeon, a famous
preacher from the 19th century, who said of becoming a pastor, “If
you can do anything else do it. If you can stay out of the ministry, stay out
of the ministry.”
I
don’t know about you, but I detect a certain tension between the Buechner and Spurgeon
quotes. The latter sounds like a warning. It suggests, to my ear at least, that
being a pastor may be more difficult, less rewarding than one might imagine. Be
really sure about this calling, it says. It may not be non-stop, deep gladness.
Now
like any calling, being a pastor features good and bad. It can be very
rewarding, although those rewards may not mirror our society’s idea of reward.
But it should not surprise anyone if a calling from God isn’t loaded with
non-stop joy and gladness. After all, at the very core of Jesus’ calling is the
cross, a cross he prays that he might not have to endure, a cross he does not
want.