Spiritual Hiccups - I Don't Get It

Some days I read through all the texts from the lectionary, and nothing.  I hear the words and recognize familiar stories, but nothing connects; nothing resonates.  I write these daily "hiccups" as much as a spiritual practice for myself as I do for others who read them.  But on those days when when God utters not a peep to me from Psalms, Old Testament, Epistle, or Gospel, these posts turn into something of chore.  I try to think of something helpful to say about the readings, but it feels more an academic than spiritual exercise.

Today was such a day, but after reading the texts, I vowed not to produce any academic notes on them.  So what to say?  I mulled this over for much of the morning and wondered about writing on the topic of not hearing anything, of not understanding.  At one point I came back to the Gospel reading and was struck by Jesus' words to his disciples when they get confused over his "yeast of the Pharisees" remark.  "Do you still not perceive or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Do you have eyes, and fail to see? Do you have ears, and fail to hear?"  And then a bit later Jesus says again, "Do you not yet understand?"

Well at least I'm not the only one who sometimes hears but doesn't get it.  And I wonder about what I share in common with those disciples who, especially in Mark's gospel, often come off as clueless and doltish.

I suspect that one problem those first disciples had was fitting Jesus into the religious framework and categories they already had.  Jesus challenged so many assumptions about faithful life with God, about what a Messiah looked like, about what authentic human life was, that he didn't fit into the religious slots and containers that people had.  The result, even among his closest followers, was sometimes confusion and bewilderment.

But surely that's not my problem?  Surely all the centuries of Christian faith have provided me with all the necessary tools to decipher and understand Jesus, to distill a neat picture of what it looks like to be a Christian.  


But what if I am much more like those first disciples than I know?  What if my religious labels, categories, and doctrines (however necessary they may be) sometimes need to be shattered if I am to see God's transforming power at work in Jesus?  


Come, Holy Spirit.  Open my eyes to God's presence that won't fit into the old wineskins I've become accustomed to and comfortable with.  Open my heart to the possibility of something new, of something more wonderful than my understanding could ever see.


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Spiritual Hiccups - Finding Hope

Every now and then someone will post a quote on Twitter or facebook from a long dead, famous person such as Socrates or Cicero who was sure that the world was going to pot.  It will talk about how youth have lost all respect for their elders, government leaders have become corrupt, and so on.  I appreciate such quotes. It is helpful to be reminded that our troubles are usually not all that new or spectacular.  They are often rather mundane, and humanity  has weathered such troubles in the past.

Psalm 12 in today's readings provides a similar sort of reminder on the religious/faith front.  "Help, O LORD, for there is no longer anyone who is godly; the faithful have disappeared from humankind. They utter lies to each other; with flattering lips and a double heart they speak."  When church folk lament the current struggles of many congregations, it is helpful to remember that this is nothing new either.  It's not as though God's people have simply been humming along just splendidly until we came on the scene and messed things up.

But for people of faith, hope comes from more than realizing that such troubles are not new, that the Church has survived worse crises in the past.  Hope comes from the certainty that the future is not determined simply by how good or how poorly we run the Church.  God has not turned over the future to us.  God will act.  God's purposes will be accomplished.

Psalm 12, when it surveys a desperate situation where "there is no longer anyone who is godly," does not give in to despair.  Instead the psalm expects God to rectify this situation.  " 'Because the poor are despoiled, because the needy groan, I will now rise up,' says the LORD; 'I will place them in the safety for which they long.' "  

The promise that God will act is not really something I can prove or explain so convincingly that anyone will believe it.  Trusting the future to God and living toward that future require a deep faith that I don't think can exist without a vivid sense of God's presence at work in one's life.  And that means that helping struggling congregations may be less about learning new worship styles, attending church growth workshops, and adopting proven evangelism techniques.  And it may instead be about becoming more open to God's presence - spending more time in prayer and silence, paying attention to those who seem to have been inspired by the Spirit, becoming more attentive to where God is moving in our individual lives, etc.

I'm one of those people who never used to have much use for "spirituality."  Walking the labyrinth and spiritual directors were fine for other folks, but not for me.  Give me things I could understand like theology and biblical exegesis.  But while theology and exegesis are extremely important tools for me as a pastor, I have discovered that I am of virtually no use as a pastor without a healthy spirituality, without cultivating my own awareness of and openness to God.  Only when I truly sense God's touch can I hope in and work toward God's future, joyfully trusting that God is faithful still.

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Spiritual Hiccups - Made New

I had just finished reading Richard Rohr's daily devotion that discussed men and our resistance to change when I came to the lectionary readings for today.  I suspect that is why I heard the opening of Psalm 62 and Paul's words in Galatians the way I did, as about the need for God to change us.  That may not sound like a particularly remarkable observation, but it strikes me that religion is more often about add-ons than it is about real change.

Very often we want God to make things better for us without changing who we are in any fundamental way.  We would like to be happier, healthier, wealthier, more fulfilled, or more of something else.  But we do not want our lives turned upside down.  We do not want to become someone different from who we are now.

Perhaps Rohr is correct and this is more of a problem for men than women.  I don't really know.  I know that I like to be in control of things, and I know quite a few women who like control as well.  But if we take seriously biblical language about being made new in Christ, about the power of the Holy Spirit to empower, gift, and propel people into ministry and mission they would never have even considered on their own, then it would seem Christian faith requires letting go of control and a willingness to be changed at the most basic level of our being.

Speaking of "salvation" and of "being saved" is common among Christians, but all too often these words are understood to speak of nothing more than one's status.  Paul certainly included status before God in his understanding, but that was only the beginning for him.  He understood himself to be a totally new person, operating from totally new motivations, finding his greatest joy from giving himself, at great personal cost, to the work of sharing God's love in Jesus. 

I think that one of the great gifts our society has given us by no longer propping up religion, by no longer enforcing an ethos of "you're supposed to go to church," is a chance to rediscover the change and newness Paul experienced.  A new vitality in the faith is beginning to emerge as more and more congregations discover spiritual practices that shape them to be more Christ-like.  This new vitality is not restricted to any particular worship styles.  It is not a matter of traditional or contemporary.  It is about a desire to encounter and be transformed by the risen Christ.

When Jesus began his earthly ministry, he spoke of God's kingdom drawing near.  And he spoke frequently of that kingdom during his ministry.  While there has been an unfortunate tendency to turn kingdom into a synonym for heaven, Jesus was clearly speaking of God's rule on earth, a day when God's will is done here as it is in heaven.  And this means that where we are now cannot be where God plans for us to be.  As individuals, and as faith communities, we are working for and living by the ways of a day that is still to be. 

When congregations long for God's new day, that precludes longing for the good old days.  Longing for the old days is a depressing and life killing exercise that wishes for what is gone.  But longing for God's kingdom is a life giving pursuit that moves toward what God is still doing... which of course requires that you and I, our congregations and the world, must change.

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Preaching Thoughts on a Non-Preaching Sunday

When we set the preaching schedule, I'm not sure I realized what "juicy" lectionary passages I was passing up by not preaching today.  Not only do we get the Beatitudes, but there is also the famous passage from Micah that asks, "And what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?"

I think that both passages undermine some popular notions of faith.  The Micah passage speaks quite plainly against religious ritual that isn't accompanied by a changed heart.  The Beatitudes locate God's special favor in some pretty unpopular places.  And both passages challenge Christians to examine what it means to follow Jesus.

Over the years I have often heard people thank God for their "many blessings."  But rarely, if ever, are they speaking about the sort of things Jesus names on his list.  Very often, the culture determines what we think of as blessings.  In our country that means things such as a good job, a nice house, a new car, and so on.  Most Christians don't go so far as a Joel Osteen and his "God wants you to be rich" message, but we have difficulty conceiving of being "reviled and persecuted" as a blessing.

I think Jesus sees this as a blessing because he, like most prophets, has a clear sense of God's hope for the world.  Because Jesus lives in full communion with God, he longs for the world to be as God wants it, as God means it to be.  And so he is acutely aware of the tension between how things are and how they will be.  And he expects those who draw close to God through him will experience this same tension.  He expects that they will find it impossible to simply accept how things are and ask God to make it a bit easier for them.  He expects that, like him, his followers will live in ways at odds with how things are, in tune with how they will be.  And he is quite sure the world will not appreciate this.

Someone asked me the other day about how my spirituality and faith had changed over the past few years.  As I tried to answer her question, it occurred to me that the most profound change has been a partial bridging of the gap between spirituality and living the faith.  Though I don't think I ever would have articulated it this way in the past, I often thought of spirituality as an esoteric pursuit meant primarily to enhance my private faith life.  But I have begun to realize that those who do the most good in the world are more often than not those whose hearts have been bent toward God's vision for the world.  And at its core, that is what spirituality is about, about our hearts becoming one with God.  And with such hearts, it is hard to live lives that are out of sync with God.

I have to admit that as a pastor, I often spend far too much of my time trying to figure things out.  What programs will work?  What should I say in next week's sermon?  What does the Bible say about this issue of that one?  And while understanding is important, it is not the same thing as faith.  Faith is more of a heart thing, and I need to spend more time allowing God to work there, so that I can perceive more as Jesus does, and so act more as Jesus would have me act.

Spiritual Hiccups - Seeing Things Differently

The new governor in my state has drawn some political fire for his  cabinet.  With two positions left to fill, every member is white, and opponents are warning that we could have the first all white cabinet since the early 1960s.  In his defense, the governor says that he does not pay attention to race but looks only for the best qualified individuals, and that he asked two African Americans to fill cabinets seats but was turned down.

Now regardless of how one reacts to this situation, it does point to racial divisions that persist in our country despite some hopeful pronouncements that we were entering a post-racial age.  For some reasons, we human beings are quick to notice differences and divide ourselves into groups.  Sometimes these divisions are relatively harmless, but often they form the basis of preferential treatment for some over others.  Certainly we have made tremendous strides in combating discrimination of many sorts in our country, but the tendency to highlight our divisions remains.

Someone who had read the New Testament but had never spent any time in a congregation might be surprised to learn that such divisions are often more prominent at church than in many other places in our society.  While there are many exceptions, congregations remain one of the more segregated places in America.  This despite the Apostle Paul's words, "As many of you as were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ.  There is no longer Jew or Greek, there is no longer slave or free, there is no longer male and female; for all of you are one in Christ Jesus." 

In Paul's day, the big division was Jew and Greek, Jew and Gentile.  For Jews like Paul, this was how the world was organized.  It was simply how things were.  But when Paul encounters God's life changing love in Jesus, his world is turned upside down.  His old ways of understanding things disappear.  None of his human ways of seeing and dividing up the world work any longer, for all are one in Christ.

One of the problems of all religious institutions is a tendency for them to be domesticated by the culture they live in.  The religion is asked to bless the status quo of the culture.  This seems to be at the heart of Paul's conflict with Jewish Christianity.  Many of those first Christians presumed that the new life Jesus' resurrection ushered in still left old divisions in place.  Those others, the Gentiles, had to become Jewish first if they wanted to be Christians.  But Paul insisted that Jesus had fundamentally ended such divisions.

This may seem an odd transition, but I think that our continuing struggles with divisions of all sorts calls for a spiritual renewal.  It calls for a deepening spirituality where we go deeper into Christ, where we open ourselves more to the presence of the Spirit.  Often times people think of spirituality as a very private, personal thing with little connection to mission or social justice.  But Paul says that clothing ourselves in Christ, breathing Christ deeply into the core of our being, finding ourselves lost in God's love, is what changes us so that we see the world, and everyone in it, differently.  Only an experience of Jesus so profound that we can say our old self has died and a new one is born will allow us to live out what Paul experiences, a world where "there is no longer Jew or Greek, there is no longer slave or free, there is no longer male and female; for all of you are one in Christ Jesus." 

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Spiritual Hiccups - Welcoming Doubts

But I, O LORD, cry out to you;
  in the morning my prayer comes before you.
O LORD, why do you cast me off?
  Why do you hide your face from me?
Wretched and close to death from my youth up,
  I suffer your terrors; I am desperate.
Your wrath has swept over me;
  your dread assaults destroy me.
They surround me like a flood all day long;
     from all sides they close in on me.
You have caused friend and neighbor to shun me;
     my companions are in darkness.

I'm not sure that these words from Psalm 88 fit with some stereotyped notions of faith.  I know many people of deep faith who would never admit to doubts, much less allow themselves to complain to or blame God.  Doubts about God's presence and anger at God seem to many the antithesis of faith, and so many are loath to admit such "weaknesses" publicly.

I've never really known if those who tell me they never doubt are being dishonest with me or with themselves, or if they really don't know doubt as a part of their faith.  But I do think that this public face of faith as something that never doubts can be an obstacle to new people joining the faith.  When churches give the impression that faith is about being certain, that it doesn't experience doubts, questions, and times when God seems to have vanished, then they make church an uncomfortable place for those who are struggling to find God, for whom God and faith often seem a fleeting experience.

I have long been thankful for the many psalms that embrace complaint, doubt, and even anger toward God.  That Jesus voiced one of these psalms from the cross says to me that he also knew something of doubt and feeling abandoned by God.  And I think congregations that are open about their own faith struggles become much more welcoming places for others who are hoping to discover God's love in the midst of a broken world.

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Spiritual Hiccups - Wombs and Breasts

For some reason I have found myself talking with church members a lot lately about why people do or don't participate in the life of a congregation.  Some of these conversations have simply been about how the cultural landscape has changed, how the world I grew up in, where everything shut down on Sunday morning and people were "supposed" to go to church, no longer exists.  But often the conversation has made a natural progression to talking about how congregations are to connect with people around them given this changed landscape.

If people no longer come to churches out of habit or because they are expected to, then it stands to reason that they must discover something compelling about Christian faith or church participation to draw them in.  And congregations often have mission and service activities that help the community see how being in Christ makes a community and its members different and compelling.

But in my reading the last few days I have been reminded of how some traditional Christian claims can be extremely off-putting to people not reared in the faith.  I'm thinking especially about some expressions of "Christ died for you."  Often such statements are connected to the threat of eternal damnation to hell.  God must punish and condemn unless Jesus comes between us and God.

The problem with such formulations is they envision an angry, vengeful, easily offended God.  This God is out for blood, and only the substitution of Jesus' blood can placate this raging deity. 

Yet the Old Testament speaks over and over again about Yahweh's steadfast love and mercy.  In fact, the deepest character of God is sometimes stated as "merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness."  And today's reading from Isaiah draws deeply from such a picture of God.  To exiles in Babylon who fear God has abandoned them, Yahweh says through the prophet, "Can a woman forget her nursing child, or show no compassion for the child of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you." 

I find the contrast between the prophet's description of God in terms of a mother's love and some Christians' picture of a God out for blood to be quite striking.  And I wonder if we church folks don't sometimes inadvertently give our non-church neighbors a frightening glimpse of a God they want nothing to do with.  But if God's love is so like the love of a mother, how could God be this scary?


Yesterday a colleague posted something on my facebook page that spoke to this.  It was a story  about Fred Craddock, great preacher and Professor of Preaching and New Testament, Emeritus at Candler in Atlanta.  While on sabbatical he visited a little Appalachian church one Sunday and happened upon a fire and brimstone sermon from Deuteronomy 23:2 about how no one from "an illicit union" could be admitted to God's congregation.  The preacher explained how this required sexual restraint for any child born out of wedlock would be condemned for all eternity.


At this point in the service several men in the congregation came down the aisle, picked up the pastor and his things and unceremoniously dumped him outside, telling him to leave and never come back.  As people milled around afterward, Fred Craddock asked what had happened.  When they explained that this is what they did to preachers that didn't preach the truth, Craddock reminded them that the preacher was quoting straight from the Bible.  To which they replied that even if it was in the Bible it couldn't be true. "There's not a one of us here that would do that to a tiny little baby, and we figure God's at least as Christian as we are." 


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Spiritual Hiccups - Us and Them

I recently heard about a book I want to read.  It's entitled What's the Least I Can Believe and Still Be a Christian?  I think the title a bit misleading.  It's not about a minimalist understanding of faith but rather an attempt to separate the core of Christian faith and life from the image of Christianity that is sometimes out there in popular imagination.

Does God care about the planet, its animals and trees, or just about saving souls?  Can Christians embrace evolution?  Are Jews and others excluded from heaven?  Many who reject the faith have heard answers to such questions only through stereotyped visions of fundamentalist Christianity.  Many agnostics and even some atheists don't really have a problem with God, but with what they've heard about God from some Christians.

Questions about what God is like and what it means to be a Christian are clearly nothing new.  The controversy Paul addresses in today's verses from Galatians has to do with what is necessary to be a Christian, and Paul relates a conflict he had with Cephas, Cephas being the Aramaic version of the Greek name Peter.  Peter, one of the earliest leaders of the Church, seems to have bowed to pressure from James, brother of Jesus and head of the Church in Jerusalem.  He has withdrawn from table fellowship with those Gentile Christians who have not been circumcised, that is have not become Jewish as part of their becoming Christian.

That's hardly a pressing issue for me.  Issues over circumcision and Jewishness eventually faded away as the Church became majority.  So what issues are pressing?  What marks do I assume are necessary in order to be a Christian, and are they really necessary?  What beliefs are essential?  What ways of living are essential?  And which ones are artificial boundaries that I have drawn or simply become accustomed to that seek to confine God's grace to folks like me?

To live out a Christian faith that has any meaning, I need to know what is essential.  I need some guiding image of what it looks like to be a Christian.  But while such images are necessary, they inevitably get mixed with images from my culture, family background, political leanings, and so on.  And so there is always an "us and them" boundary comparable to the circumcision boundary that caused Peter to shun non-Jewish Christians, that prompts people of deep faith to say, "Surely God's love and grace wouldn't go there." 

And so I come back to that fundamental issue of what it means to be Christian and what sort of God I know in Jesus.  Lord, guide me into a faith, and help me lead a congregation, that knows love and grace as big as wide as that shown by Christ.

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