my voice and my supplications.
Because he inclined his ear to me,
therefore I will call on him as long as I live.
So what happens when God doesn't hear my voice or incline an ear to me? Should I perhaps write my own psalm? "I don't love the LORD, who ignored me and turned away from my pleas." I do of course understand that God may well hear me and not do what I want to my own best interests. "No" is an answer. But there are times when a clear "No" would be so much better than silence, nothing.
I sometimes think the Church does people of faith a disservice by not talking very much about doubt and the very real experience of God's absence. In fact for many Christians, doubt and God's absence are so feared, so seen as a the opposite of faith, that they will do anything to ward them off. Sometimes I even wonder if certain forms of zealous fundamentalism aren't simply poor strategies for dealing with doubt. Believe certain things hard enough and vigorously enough and unquestioningly enough, and doubt won't be able to find a foothold. (I need better labels. "Fundamentalist" means adherence to certain fundamental tenants, and in this sense, I am a fundamentalist. I have certain core beliefs that I think of as minimally required in order to be a Christian.)
I think that acknowledging doubts, and especially acknowledging the experience of God's absence can actually open us to deeper faith. The absence of God can generate a desire, a longing for God's presence, and presence is something entirely different from a doctrine or set of beliefs. And many wise spiritual guides have said that a longing for God is truly a gift from God. Such a longing can motivate a deeper search and a willingness to be reshaped and transformed in ways that better suit God's presence.
If you have never pleaded for God to come to you, if you've never felt a painful desire to connect or reconnect with God, I suspect you are missing out on an important part of growing in faith, of growing deeper into the presence of God.
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